First Chapter: The Welcome Sign by Barbara Jean Weber

 

Title: The Welcome Sign

Author: Barbara Jean Weber

Publisher: BookBaby

Publication Date: July 1, 2024

Pages: 218

Genre: Fantasy/Middle Grade/YA

Formats: Paperback, Kindle

When 10-year-old Molly Parnell’s grandmother mysteriously disappears she and her mother travel to Cape Cod to take ownership of the house they inherited and find out answers about the sudden disappearance. But what they discover could be more dangerous and life changing than they ever imaged. Molly and her mother find a beautiful mermaid welcome sign in the attic and place it on the front door. Unusual things start to happen and they are flooded with visitors who claim they knew the grandmother.  The true powers behind the mysterious sign are revealed as Molly learns her grandmother was part of a secret organization working to keep balance between the magical realm and the real world. The magical realms placed an invisible veil of secrecy over the world to hide their true identities from the human world but allowing them to live among them  in secret. An angry rebel group of magical beings, tired of living in hiding is tearing down and destroying the magical cloaking fabric between the two worlds. If they are not stopped the magical realm will no longer be safe from the world.  As Molly and her mom embark on a dangerous and magical adventure throughout the magical realms to help stop  the rebels, she learns of her own magical powers and her strong family heritage connected to the welcome sign. Along the way, she teams up with new magical friends helping to keep the realm of magic safe from the eyes of the world and discovers that her grandmother was right all along. The world she thought she knew no longer exists, but an amazing world of magic woven into their world has always been hiding  in plain sight.

The Welcome Sign is available at Amazon.


First Chapter:

Popular Bluff

NINE-YEAR-OLD MOLLY PARMELL, THE ADVENTUROUS, BROWN haired girl, sat quietly on her bed as her cat, Cuddles, sat purring in her lap. Molly adjusted her braids, shivered, and pulled her cozy pink sweater closer around her shoulders. She looked lovingly down at her orange tabby cat and scratched his head. The roof creaked and groaned loudly from the gusty winds of the storm, and Molly cringed, thinking the roof might actually blow off the house. A low rumble of thunder boomed in the distance, and Molly glanced up as a continuous “drip, drip, drip” noise splashed into a half-full pan of water in the corner of her room. Huge flashes of lightning lit up the room, creating odd shadows over the walls. The falling rain created thunderous pounding sounds on the roof as it poured relentlessly from the sky. The creaky old house was cold and drafty, and the chill in Molly’s room hovered in the air like a thick smoke. Molly rubbed her arms and shivered again. She hated this creepy old house and couldn’t wait until they could move into one of their own.

It was a cold and stormy October day in the town of Popular Bluff, Missouri. Popular Bluff was set among the majestic foothills of the Ozark mountains, which were replete with spring-fed streams and breathtaking lakes. It was a great place for fun outdoor activities; however, there wasn’t much to do there on cold rainy days. Molly didn’t particularly enjoy these chilly fall days when the sky was dark and cloudy and the trees were losing leaves. The house was dark, eerie, and very creepy. Molly looked thoughtfully out the window at the constant downpour. The few leaves that still clung to their branches were covered in the bright, fiery shades of yellow, orange, and red. Fall at the Parmell house meant that the fireplace was ablaze with the warm glow of firewood, and Molly and her mom would devour large mugs of hot chocolate with extra-big

marshmallows. In front of the fireplace was the only real warm spot in the house on dreary days like this. Molly sat back with a sigh, glanced around her bedroom, and frowned at her nippy surroundings.

Molly and her mother rented the rundown modern style, two-story house with a large front porch. It needed a fair bit of work, but it had been available and cheap. It had been almost five years since the horrible car accident that had taken Molly’s dad, Michael Parmell.

He’d been on a business trip when the fateful accident claimed his life. Molly and her mom missed him terribly but thought of him often. There were photos of them as a family throughout the house.

After the funeral expenses had been paid, this leaky old house was all they’d been able to afford. It was very drafty and needed a new paint job inside and out, new carpeting throughout, mending on the porch railings, multiple patches in the ancient roof, and a real fence with a working gate. The fence right now consisted of five rickety and warped old stakes attached with two cross stakes that leaned over so far that any day now they’d be resting comfortably on the ground. The railing on the staircase was loose, and the stairs were warped and weak. The roof leaked everywhere, and the house was falling apart from corner to corner. On rainy days like this, buckets, pans, and anything that could hold water littered the floor throughout the house, catching the cascading water as it dripped off the ceiling.

Their landlord, Mr. Garreth Simmons, was a nice man in his mid sixties and had been a stable and solid part of their lives for the past four-and-a-half years. Molly had lost her real dad when she was only five years old. Mr. Simmons was more like a father figure to her than a landlord, really. He would spend lots of time telling her wonderful

stories of his adventurous youth and teaching her all sorts of new things, explaining how and why certain gizmos worked, and answering lots of life’s little questions. The three of them were a real family, and Molly knew she’d miss seeing Mr. Simmons regularly if they moved, but the house was driving her crazy.

Due to the extensive repairs that were needed, Mr. Simmons had shown leniency and charged Angela and Molly an exceptionally generous and affordable rent each month. In fact, it was hardly any money at all. Angela had insisted that he take more, but he’d refused. The best she could do was offer him hearty home-cooked meals several times a week. Mr. Simmons gladly accepted that offer at least three nights a week. He had planned on tearing down the old structure but recognized a family in need. He wasn’t a good repairman, however, so the damages to the house were slow to get repaired. Although the house needed a great deal of help, it was home for Molly, at least until they could afford to buy a home of their own. She’d miss sweet Mr. Simmons but just couldn’t wait to move out of this dreary, shabby place.

Whenever Molly got frustrated with her decrepit surroundings, she’d think back to the fun-filled summers she and her mom had spent with her grandmother on Cape Cod. Every spring, Molly would get excited as she thought about the long trip they’d be making in a few months over to the Cape. Early in the summer, Molly and her mom would drive two hours to the nearest airport in Memphis, Tennessee, and board the airplane for the seven-hour flight to the Barnstable Muniboardman/Polando Field Airport in Hyannis, Maine.

They would spend several weeks with her grandmother in the beautiful town of Barnstable, soaking in the salty sea air and having endless adventures. There were always wonderful new things to do and see when she went to visit her grandmother.

Grammas’ house was heaven for Molly. It was a large, white, two story, Victorian-style house with a dark-green trim all around the windows and doors. There was always something new to discover and explore in that huge house; new nooks and crannies she’d never found before. A long, covered porch wrapped all around the house, lending itself to a fabulous view of the ocean in the distance.

On the second level was Molly’s bedroom, with a door that opened onto a smaller covered porch. The room was decorated with delicate little seashell patterns on the wall trim just above the chair railing two feet off the floor. The smoky-white curtains had sandy-colored, embroidered shell patterns scattered here and there on the fabric. Several glass bowls sat on the old dresser by the wall, filled with brightly colored seashells. Over the dresser hung a large mirror with a crooked tilt to one side.

There was a large seashell-shaped lamp by the bed, the paint chipping off on both sides. Her mom’s room was right next door and was filled with dashes of blues and greens. A large lighthouse lamp sat on the bedside table. Molly loved turning it on and off and watching the lighthouse light up at night. Her mom’s room had several lighthouse-shaped candles and a big ship’s steering wheel on the wall above the bed.

Gramma’s room was downstairs, next to the staircase, and opened up onto a small deck overlooking the ocean. Her room was decorated in purples and pinks. Several elegantly painted fish and sea creature wall hangings covered the walls. A few large and

impressive-looking shells were also showcased in this room. From every window in the house there was a spectacular view of the ocean. The peaceful, melodious music of the waves crashing on the shore was soothing and relaxing. Molly always looked forward to

hours of staring out at the sea with her mom and grandmother.

Molly’s favorite thing about her grandmother’s house was the alluring mermaid/merman statue that sat on a side table in the living room. The elaborate statue featured an exotic mermaid with long, brown, flowing hair. She was draped in different shades and shapes of green seaweed. Pearls and shells were set elegantly in her hair. A

handsome young merman swam next to her. He was powerfully built and had long, brown hair that was carved to look like it was suspended in the ocean. The aquatic beings were glancing happily at each other. Both had a hand placed on an intricately carved, purple colored trident. The whole statue stood about two feet tall and was

painted to look realistic. Every line, every detail, was perfectly crafted, shaped, and painted. The tails were a shiny blue-green color, inlayed here and there with mother of pearl, and each shiny scale was carved to look like the real thing. The whole statue

seemed to be covered in a light pearlesque coating and shimmered as you passed it. At the base of the statue were several large, colorful, coral-covered rocks made to look as if they had come right from the bottom of the ocean. Molly had half expected to see real

fish swimming up from the reef. A small hole was cut into the head of the trident, about the size of a large marble. Molly remembered her grandmother saying that she had lost the marble some years before but had decided to keep the statue anyway. Molly had been

truly mesmerized and intrigued by the sculpture because it was so realistic and appeared to be a miniature version of real merfolk. Molly loved daydreaming about the undersea world and imagined  these two merfolk as her guides to the watery realm.

The view of the ocean from Molly’s porch was breathtaking, and she loved keeping the windows of the guestroom open so she could hear the gentle splashing of the waves on the shore and feel the cool ocean breezes on her face. A beautiful rocky area just off to one side held massive pillars of rock formations. Molly imagined merfolk from the depths of the sea coming to play there in the crashing waves at night when the shoreline was dark and the land dwellers slumbered.

Gramma had sand and sea glass in pretty containers; fishing floaters arranged on the table; dried, woven seaweed baskets filled with seashells; and a fishing net hung delicately on the wall surrounded by all kinds of hand-painted sea-creature decorations.

She had several giant clamshells, delicate corals, and other shells of enormous size displayed in a cabinet. There were sea objects everywhere you looked; there were even sea-creature-shaped soaps in the bathrooms. Gramma loved everything about the sea and proudly displayed that love in every corner of her house. Molly swore that the old sea chest in the living room was a real pirate treasure chest brought up from the bottom of the sea.

Barnstable was a magical place, and every summer Molly enjoyed beachcombing with her gramma and mom while listening to her gramma’s fanciful stories about the sea. Molly never fully understood why her mom had moved away from Cape Cod. Her mom didn’t like talking about her move from the Cape, but Molly hoped that one day they could live much closer to her gramma. Molly sighed happily at the thought that her gramma would be coming for Christmas in a few months and then it wouldn’t be long before summer was here again and they’d be off to the cape.

Molly was jolted out of her dreamy state as another flash of lightning streaked through the room. She had just finished her homework and was getting ready take her sleepy cat downstairs to curl up by the fire and persuade her mom to make more of that special drink. It was Saturday afternoon and most of her friends were off doing things with their families, but she was content to spend a lazy day with her mom, wrapped in a warm blanket in front of the fire, listening to the pelting tink of the rain on the roof. Tink!

Tink! Tink!

Angela Parmell, her long dark hair pulled back into a long ponytail, sat in the den, writing and addressing the bills. When she’d finished the stack of bills, she set the envelopes on the corner of the desk, sat back, and sighed thoughtfully. Angela glanced out the window at the torrential downpour. Lightning flashed throughout the room, and the thunder shook the windows. The sound of the rain on the roof was almost deafening by this time. She stared for several moments at the pans on the floor filling up with water and shook her head. “We really need to find a better place.” She exhaled. Angela wondered if she should venture out into that pouring rain to the mailbox and mail the bills right away or wait until later.

“Hmmmm,” she thought. She’d have to go check the fireplace in the living room and add more wood in a few minutes. Angela looked outside again, tugged on the neck of her turtleneck sweater, and decided to mail them when the rain slowed down a bit. “Molly will be coming down soon for a refill on hot chocolate,” she thought and walked to the kitchen. She heard a faint “meow” from the base of the stairs as she put water in the teapot and set it on the stove.

“Come here, Cuddles,” she called. “Where is that Molly girl of mine?” she asked, reaching down to pet the cat as it entered the kitchen sleepily. “She’ll be wanting more hot chocolate, I s’pose.” She smiled and sighed deeply. Angela bent down and picked up a full bucket of water from the kitchen floor and dumped it out in the sink, replacing it under the drips from the ceiling.

The telephone rang from the den. Angela reached down to pet the cat one more time as she brushed past her on her way to answer the phone. “Yes, hello. Oh, thank you. Yes, we’re both doing fine. There’s an awful lot of water, but we’re using pans and buckets, and that seems to be working. The power is still on, thankfully. You are so nice for checking up on us. Okay. Yeah, sure. You have a good day, too. We’ll call if we need anything. Thanks so much.” Angela smiled and set the phone back on the receiver. It was nice Mr. Simmons, checking in during the storm to see if they were okay. He was such a kind and generous man with a heart of gold. He always came by or called to make sure they were doing okay or if they needed anything. They had had a break-in just a few nights before.

Nothing was missing, and it seemed unusual that the criminals hadn’t taken anything. The police speculated that they’d been looking for something specific and had left when they couldn’t find it. The house was a mess, but they had restored order in a short time. Mr. Simmons had been there to help. Everyone was still a little on edge, and it was comforting to know Mr. Simmons was close by, watching out for them. He’d be coming for dinner tomorrow night, and they always enjoyed their evenings with him around. Angela knew it would be hard on all of them when they left. Mr. Simmons had become such an important part of their lives. It would be hard to leave.

Molly came bounding down the stairs with a huge mug in her hand. “Mom? Mom, who called? Where are you? Can I have more hot chocolate, Mom? With lots of extra marshmallows?”

“Sure, honey! I’m here in the kitchen,” Angela replied, still petting Cuddles. “That was Mr. Simmons on the phone, just checking in on us. He wanted to make sure we were both doing okay during this storm. Well, I see that Cuddles beat you down here this time. Molly, do ya think she’d like some hot chocolate, too?” They both laughed.

“Cats don’t drink hot chocolate, Mom! You’re being silly!”

“Well maybe they don’t, but she might eat some of those marshmallow,” Angela remarked. Angela fixed two hot chocolates with the hot water from the teapot and handed one to Molly.

“Careful, honey. It’s hot. Here come the marshmallows,” Angela said as she plopped several big, puffy marshmallows into Molly’s mug.

“Hey, Mom, let’s go sit by the fire and watch the storm!” she said as she headed for the living room. Molly picked up a full pan of water from the living room, emptied it in the kitchen sink, and replaced it. She led the way to the living room again and collapsed onto the couch, followed closely by her mom. They sat there for several minutes, just listening to the rain and sipping their drinks.

The lightning and thunder continued to distract them. Angela set her mug on the coffee table, stood up, and went to add more wood to the fire. It sparked and sputtered as she sat back down on the couch next to her daughter.

“Don’t you just hate days like this, Mom? All this water with this leaky roof. Pretty soon we’re gonna need a boat.” Molly sighed.

“There’s nothin’ ta do on days like this . . . I guess we just flop on

the couch and listen to the rain. I hope the house doesn’t float away.”

“Yeah.” Angela exhaled as she glanced out the window. “Me too … You know, I’m thinking that a boat wouldn’t be a bad investment right now.” She smiled. The rain was coming down harder than earlier in the day, and she wondered if the gutters would overflow with all the extra rainwater. Cuddles jumped on the couch and curled up between Molly and Angela.

“Mom, do you think the roof will blow off with all of this wind? I don’t think we have enough pans and buckets for all this water.”

“Don’t worry, honey. I don’t think the roof will blow off even in this storm, and we’ll just have to keep emptying the buckets and pans. We may have some water spillage, but it won’t be too bad.” Angela said, petting the cat. “It’s a little drafty in here, but with the fire going, we’ll be fine.” She smiled.

“I don’t like these big storms and this creepy house with the creaky roof. Listen to that howling wind, Mom.” Molly frowned at her mom. “I don’t like it.”

Angela put her arm around her daughter, pulling her in close. “It’s just wind and rain, honey. We might want to think about getting a boat, though.” She chuckled.

“Mom!” Molly giggled. “We’re both good swimmers, but Cuddles might need a raft or something.” Angela hugged her daughter tightly and then got up to empty another full pan of water. She emptied it in the kitchen and then came back in to the living room. “Hey, Mom.”

Molly turned toward her mom as she entered the room. The wind was howling and whistling around the porch. “Please don’t get mad,” she said, petting the cat as it purred loudly, “but why can’t we go live with Gramma in her big house? There’s tons of room there, and then we can see her all the time.”

“Honey, your grandmother has better things to do than to have us hanging around all the time. Don’t worry, we’ll get a place of our own soon.”

“Mom, why don’t you like living at Cape Cod anyway?” Molly glanced back at her mom.

Angela sighed loudly and shook her head. “It’s complicated. It’s not that I don’t like living at the Cape.”

“But you moved away really early on—when you were old enough. . . that’s what Gramma said,” Molly retorted accusingly.

“Honey, you have to understand something.” She exhaled noisily.

“Your grandmother and I didn’t always see eye to eye on things. I just needed to get away, have my own life. Get away from that area and live on my own. That’s all.”

“Hmmmm.” Molly didn’t seem convinced that her mom was telling her the whole story and stared back at the fireplace. “Was it because you and Gramma kept fighting?”

“Well, that did put a strain on our relationship, but I just needed time away. Time on my own,” Angela responded without hesitation.

“What did you fight about?

“Honey, why all these questions? We’ve had this talk before. Those are grown up things. Okay, just between me and your grandmother. It’s nothing for you to worry about.” Angela got up and stoked the fire, pushing a piece of half-burned wood farther into it.

“Okay, okay. I just hate to see you and Gramma angry at each other. I want this Christmas to be a time when you two get along the whole time.” Molly got up, picked up a full pan of water from the floor, and walked into the kitchen with it. As she poured it out in the sink, she glanced back in to the living room.

“Tell ya what. I’ll make you a deal,” Angela raised her voice so that Molly could hear her from the kitchen. “You don’t worry about any of it, and I’ll do my best not to fight with Gramma . . . but just for you, okay?” Angela hugged her daughter as she came back into the room.

“Okay . . . but some day I’m going to make sure you tell me all about it.” Molly responded flippantly. “Mom, will you PLEEEASE please- please-PLEEEEASE tell me one of the stories that Gramma used to tell you when you were my age? One of the true ones?”

Molly asked, looking hopefully over at her mom. She strolled over to the corner of the living room and placed the pan back on the floor under the drip.

“Molly!” Angela gasped in a frustrated tone. “Gramma’s stories?

OOOOH, I thought we talked about this! Those stories are just . . . ,”

Angela paused with a big sigh, “. . . just kooky, made up things that your loony old grandma wasted her time on. None of those crazy tales are true! None of them! I didn’t believe the stories back then, and I don’t believe them now . . . and you shouldn’t either. I want your feet planted firmly on the ground and not up in the clouds with your Gramma. Her stories are just make believe. Just make believe! Got it?”

“But Moooom,” Molly whined. “They sound so real . . . don’t worry, I know they are make believe, but I still want to hear one,” she pleaded. Angela sighed, breathed deeply, and shook her head slowly.

“Besides, what if they are real?” Angela threw Molly a disgusted glare.

“Well, okay. This is against my better judgment,” Angela whispered, “but have I ever told you about the legend?” Angela raised her eyebrows in a playful manner.

“Legend?” Molly sat up excitedly. “You never mentioned anything about a legend! What is it? Come on, Mom, tell me!” Molly’s eyes sparkled as she squealed her delight at hearing a new tale.

“Well,” Angela started, looking around the room. “Shhhh, we can’t say any of this too loudly. You never know who might be listening.” She giggled and hugged her daughter.

“Mom, come on! I can’t stand the waiting! JUST TELL ME THE STORY!”

“Okay. Okay. Here goes. The legend goes something like this . . . apparently a long, long time ago, an alliance was created between the human world and the water world. A magical portal was created for true believers to cross between the two realms. It was said that as a gift, a perfectly rounded black pearl was presented to the chosen true believer. It was believed that this special gift came directly from the ruler of the ocean. This incredible pearl was said to be the key to opening the doorway between the two worlds. Without the magical pearl, the door would remain closed forever. Spooky stuff, huh, honey?”

“WOW! Mom, that was great! What else do you know about the legend?”

“Nothing, really. Just that only a true believer could open the doorway and cross into the other realm. Hey, it’s all silly nonsense, anyway . . . Everyone in town searched endlessly for the doorway and the pearl. Nothing was ever found . . . it was just a silly story to get tourists interested in coming to the Cape. That’s all. Our town did end up selling a ton of pearls to tourists, though.” Angela shrugged.

“Did you ever look for the REAL pearl, Mom?” Molly asked in a high-pitched tone.

“Yes, a bunch of us did . . .” She nodded. “Come to think of it . . . I was just about your age. We never found anything though.” She frowned. “Like I said, kiddo . . . it was just a fun story to tell kids and tourists.”

Molly sighed thoughtfully. “I don’t know, Mom . . . there’s a lot of stuff about that town, and the stories Gramma told about that don’t seem so silly.”

Changing the subject quickly, Angela stated, “Hey, when I talked to your grandma a couple of days ago, she said that she was really looking forward to seeing us for Christmas. Not long now, just a few months!” Angela grinned at Molly.

“She didn’t sound kooky on the phone, did she? I’m glad that we’ll be seeing her for Christmas even though you two always seem to be fighting about stuff.” Molly folded her arms and frowned. “I don’t like it when you fight. But happily, it’s only two months away, and I can’t wait to see her. YEAH!” Molly jumped off the couch and threw her arms in the air with an excited cheer. “Mom, when I talked with her, she said that she had something really important to tell us over Christmas. What do you think it is?”

Angela tilted her head thoughtfully to one side, took hold of her daughter’s hand, and shrugged. “I don’t know what the important thing is that Gramma wants to tell us, honey. But if she says it’s important, you KNOW it’s got to be really good. We’ll just have to wait until we see her to find out. Hey kiddo, I know your grandma and I argue a lot, but we are STILL family, and we STILL love each other. That will never change. I’m glad we’ll be seeing her for Christmas, too.”

“Mom, do you think Gramma will have some more stories for me? About those magical creatures again?” Angela sighed happily.

“Yes, honey, if I know your grandma, she’s sure to have plenty of outlandish tales to tell you.” She sighed loudly.

“Sometimes I think that they ARE real, Mom, and that Gramma really HAS done those things she talks about. How come she talks like she’s really done them and really knows all about those magical creatures? Did she ever tell you these stories? Did you ever believe them?”

“Oh, honey,” Angela glanced at the fire and sighed deeply. “Your grandma.” She sighed. “Uh, your grandma has a very vivid imagination. When I was growing up, your grandma told me all kinds of fanciful and wondrous stories of powerful magic, magical creatures, and enchantments. She wove fascinating tales and told them just like they were real. She was a real believer. I believed her, too; for a while at least.” Angela turned toward Molly and rested her hands on Molly’s. “Her stories were fun and full of magic. It was fun to believe in them. Grandma made the mundane world around me seem magical.” Angela snickered. “She was a bit kooky, I think, but she had a way of taking a normal, ordinary day and turning it into something exciting. It was never dull growing up with her as a mom.” She sighed, looking up at her daughter. “I believed her for a while; in fact, I believed her for quite a long time. You should have fun listening to her stories. I don’t ever want to take that away from you, but don’t think for ONE minute that they are real. I learned the hard way that it was all make believe. All of it, and I was crushed.”

Angela sighed deeply and stood up. She walked over to the fireplace and leaned against the mantel. She turned slowly toward Molly, who was intently staring at her mom, fixated on her every word.

“Was that when you and Gramma started fighting? Because you stopped believing?” Molly asked softly.

“Yeah, I think it was. Molly, I tried to believe. I wanted to believe. I wanted so badly to see the things she did, so I imaged that I could. It was wonderful for a while, but then one day, when I was about your age, I realized I had grown up and just didn’t see them anymore.” Angela placed another log on the fire and prodded it with the fire poker. “Where she saw vast herds of unicorns and centaurs, I only saw horses and cows. Where she saw flying dragons and fairies, I saw ordinary birds and butterflies. Molly, I don’t know if your grandma is crazy or not, but she can tell stories very well. I always thought that, with all of her tales of magic, she should havewritten children stories.” Angela chuckled and lowered her head.

“Enjoy her stories, but remember that they are just make believe, okay?” Molly nodded quickly. “Honey, if you know and understand this, then you will never be disappointed, never! Don’t make my mistake by thinking magic is real. It’s ALL make believe. Horses REALLY are JUST horses, and butterflies REALLY are JUST butterflies.”

“Mom, what about the merfolk?” Molly stood up and hugged her mom. “Living on Cape Cod, you must’ve seen some of them for sure! Grandma talks mostly of them . . . did you see any living that close to the ocean?” Angela chuckled again and hugged her daughter tightly. She put one knee on the floor and hugged her daughter again.

“Ah, yes, Gramma’s famous mermaids and merfolk. I had almost forgotten about them,” she mumbled with another heavy sigh. “She believed in mermaids so much that she even had a special welcome sign that she hung on the front door. It had a beautiful swimming mermaid on it. She said it guarded the house from evil magic. Don’t think for one minute that I didn’t search for mermaids. I spent hours and hours staring out at the sea, hoping to catch sight of a fin or tail or something. Some tiny sign that merfolk were real. Oh, I wanted to believe that Cape Cod was full of merfolk, but sadly, like the others, they were made up, too. Just more dreamed-up creatures from your grandma’s wild imagination. They aren’t real either. Trust me, I searched and searched. All I saw were fish, dolphins, whales, seals. Just normal sea animals of all kinds but never any merfolk.”

Angela let out a long sigh and lowered herself back down on the couch.

“Mom,” Molly was holding Cuddles on her lap and now pulled the cat in close for a hug. “Do I have to stop listening to Gramma’s stories?”

“No, honey, of course not. Just remember they are all make believe, okay?” She sighed loudly. “I don’t want you believing in something so strongly and then getting crushed when you find out that none of it is true.”

“Okay, but I’m still going to enjoy them.” Molly tilted her head toward Cuddles with a dreamy look on her face. She smiled as she imagined some of the wonderful creatures her grandma had described.

“All I ask is that you understand that it’s all make believe.” Angela stood up and headed for the kitchen. “Do you want some more hot chocolate, honey?” She turned back toward Molly still sitting on the couch. Molly turned and leaned on the back of the couch.

“Yeah, here’s my mug.” She held out her cup until her mom walked back and took it from her.

The distant jingle of the telephone from the den jolted Molly out of her dreamy daze. “MOM! I’ll get the phone!” Molly shouted as she set Cuddles on the floor and leapt off the couch. She skipped off to the den with her head full of happy thoughts of her grandmother.

“Hello? Huh? Okay . . . just a sec.’ MOOOOOOM? IT’S FOR YOU—SOMETHING ABOUT GRAMMA!” she hollered, setting the phone down on the desk. Angela handed the two hot chocolates to Molly.

“Who is it, sweety?” Angela asked as she picked up the phone.

“Don’t know.” Molly shrugged as she walked toward the door of the den.

“Hello! Yes, this is Angela Parmell. What is this about?” Angela’s face suddenly turned white, and she went weak in the knees. Her eyes were wide with shock as she listened intently to the phone. “Yes, of course. I understand.” After a short while she slowly set the receiver down.

“Mom? Mom? What’s wrong?!” Molly wrinkled her brow. “What’s wrong?!” Molly squealed and ran over to her mom, grabbing her arm. Angela’s face was pale white, and she touched her daughter’s arm gently.

“Something bad . . . something very . . .” She looked up at Molly. “Honey, something bad . . . has happened . . . to Gramma,” she stammered and stared down at the floor, momentarily frozen from the shock. Angela’s voice was slow and soft, and she spoke as if in a daze.

“What happened?! MOM? WHAT HAPPENED TO GRAMMA?” Molly started to cry.

“I UH, honey . . . I don’t . . . Uh . . . I don’t really know . . . I mean . . . THEY don’t really know . . . the police . . . don’t know exactly what happened . . . but Gramma is . . . Uh . . .” Angela paused, stabilizing herself with the table. She was clearly in a state of shock.

“Mom? What is it? What happened?” Molly stood up and reached out for her mom. Molly led Angela back to the living room in silence.

Angela flopped on the couch and stared blankly into the fire.

“Mom, what is it? What happened?”

“Honey . . . your grandmother . . . is . . . .dead.” She turned toward Molly.

“What? Gramma is . . . dead? Are you sure? That can’t be . . . I just talked to her a few days ago on the phone . . . she sounded fine. What happened? Did the police say what happened?” Tears streamed down Molly’s face.

“Uh,” Angela phased back in for a second and focused her attention on Molly. “Uh, no . . . they’re still investigating. They’re not sure yet if it was an accident or not—but they suspect that it wasn’t an accident.” Angela pulled Molly in close and hugged her. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she cried as she held her daughter tightly.

Though neither knew it, this was the fateful phone call that would change their lives forever. From this moment on, nothing would ever be the same again for Molly and Angela.


About the Author:


Barbara Jean Weber
lives in Skagit County with her husband and two daughters, where she works as a speech and language therapist. Her novel, The Welcome Sign, was inspired when she was gifted a mermaid welcome sign. The more she studied the sign, the more her story evolved. She is currently an active member of the Society of Children’s Book Writers and Illustrators.

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First Chapter: Cinder Bella by Kathleen Shoop

 


Title: 'Tis the Season Book 3: Cinder Bella

Author: Kathleen Shoop

Publisher: Independent

Pages: 228

Genre: Historical Fiction

She never had anything.

He lost everything.

Together they create a Christmas to remember.

December, 1893–Shadyside, Pennsylvania

Bella Darling lives in a cozy barn at Maple Grove, an estate owned by industrialist Archibald Westminster. The Westminster family is stranded overseas and have sent word to relieve all employees of their duties except Margaret, the pregnant maid, James the butler, and Bella. Content with borrowed books and a toasty home festooned with pine boughs and cinnamon sticks, she coaxes the old hens to lay eggs–extraordinary eggs. Bella yearns for just one thing—someone to share her life with. Always inventive, she has a plan for that. She just needs the right egg into the hands of the right man.

Bartholomew Baines, a Harvard-educated banker, is reeling in the aftermath of his bank’s collapse. With his friends and fiancé ostracizing him for what he thought was an act of generosity, he is penniless and alone. A kind woman welcomes him into her boarding house under conditions that he reluctantly accepts. Completely undone by his current, lowly position, and by the motley crew of fellow boarders who view him as one of them, Bartholomew wrestles with how to rebuild.

With the special eggs as the impetus, the first meeting between Bella and Bartholomew gives each the wrong idea about the other. And when the boarding house burns down a week before Christmas it’s Bella who is there to lend a hand. She, Margaret, and James invite the homeless group to stay at the estate through the holidays. But as Christmas draws closer, eviction papers arrive. Maple Grove is being foreclosed upon. Can Bella work her magic and save their Christmas? Is the growing attraction between Bella and Bartholomew enough for them to see past their differences? 

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1893

Shadyside, Pennsylvania

The week before Christmas…

Bella’s breath caught. The coyotes’ high-pitched yips and howls trailed from a distance. Living in a city, she hadn’t thought they’d get so close to the Westminster property, but now her livelihood was threatened. She should have acted sooner. She kept on. The snow fell thick, brightening what would have been a dark night without the land blanketed in white to reflect the crescent moon’s shine. She swallowed her rising fear as she stepped through the fresh fall, winding along the maple- and evergreen-lined path that led from the barn to the coop. Bella hated the thought of shooting any living thing, but she would do it if necessary.

The coyote calls came again. Closer. A chill spun up her spine. She stopped and juggled the shotgun under one arm, the tin bowls tucked under the other, and jars of vinegar clutched to her midsection. Her cat, Simon, accompanied her, stopping when she did. Bella turned her head to hear better. The coyote cries were coming from the east end of town. She clicked her tongue at Simon. He leapt onto her shoulder. His landing was gentle as could be, but still Bella’s coat seams tore a little more as the cat nestled into her.

She forced her feet to move again and picked up speed. “Tomorrow we bring the hens inside. No more of this evening trek to lay new vinegar. Those pesky coyotes can hunt somewhere else.”

Simon meowed and nuzzled her ear with the top of his head.

She reached the coop. Simon hopped down and made his rounds, circling the enclosure. He hopped through the high snow, crisp landings breaking the silence. The hens were snug and safe, but the idea of coyotes rustling around her prized hens was too much. She hadn’t slept well for days.

Margaret, the Westminster’s housemaid, had informed Bella that she’d heard stories that the four-legged hunters had been making their rounds in Shadyside and East Liberty, feasting on Christmas turkeys, chickens, even pets. The yipping drew closer and Bella poured vinegar into the bowls and circled the coop with them, hoping it would be enough to keep the predators away, that the fresh snow wouldn’t dilute the sharp vinegar scent. With the bowls in place she sprinkled some cayenne pepper near the foundation of the coop as well.

Finished with that chore and Simon back on her shoulder, she held her breath listening for preying animals. Silence. Only Simon’s purring and the shushing of fast falling snow filled her ears. Still, she wouldn’t sleep well. She had to keep those hens alive and laying. Her very existence depended upon it. She and Simon trudged back to the barn and soon she was tucked into the bed she’d made in the loft.

It would be a long night, but she had her books, a view of the coop from her loft bed and she had Simon. She struggled to stay awake, tearing her gaze from her storybooks when any sound startled her. But at some point, sleep came. She awakened quick and shot to sitting. The coyotes? Nothing. Just her dreams. She fell back onto her pillow with a deep exhale, arm tossed over her forehead, the cat warming her feet. Bella scratched the quilt. “Come on, Simon.”

She turned on her side as Simon crept up her body then plopped beside her and curled into her belly. Bella rubbed him behind the ears and looked through the window. Christmas was coming. The best time of the year. Stars twinkled between spindly winter maple tree branches and peeked over evergreen crowns.

The crescent moon glimmered and Mother Nature’s great lights turned the snowy expanse beyond the barn into a jewel box waiting for a debutante to pluck a few stones. Pittsburgh’s princesses were daughters of industry, bankers, politicians, and inventors. Their fancy holiday balls thrown by families who mimicked the wealthy habits of royalty were legendary and grew larger and more decadent each season. She imagined the Frick, O’Hara, Schenley, and Westminster daughters with snow laid diamonds strung through their hair, draped around necks, and ringing wrists and fingers. The women were known to sparkle like the winterscape itself. Their jewelry was that beautiful, magical.

Bella stretched and yawned. A New Year’s ball. That’s where Bella’s latest fictional heroine was headed. Once upon a time… she spun a tale like she always did when she wakened to a fresh day. This tale involved a protagonist fending off evildoers—the four-legged, furry kind. The silly story made it clear—Bella would set the hens up inside the barn at night until the coyotes moved on.

She eyed the empty oil lantern, the candle burnt to a nub, and the borrowed books stacked on the orange crate beside her. It was her night reading that led to daydreams of someday writing her own stories. Not that she had the time. Opening a book and slipping into the pages of worlds others had created was plenty for her. It had to be.

The sun was waking, drawing a thin sapphire line across the horizon, the signal it was time to rise. Bella jumped out of bed, readied for the day with an extra set of stockings and her sweater with leather buttons. It had been knitted by Mrs. Lambert who said the eggs Bella sold her were magic. Just a week back, the woman appeared at the barn door with the sweater and a hen no longer interested in laying, asking if Bella would get her to produce, and save a few eggs out for her each week.

“Just a few’s all I need and you can do what you will with the rest,” Mrs. Lambert had said.

Charmed. Magic. The woman had said the words a dozen times, insisting that though Bella’s eggs seemed ordinary on the outside—what they did once cracked open was inexplicable.

Though outlandish, the woman boldly claimed the eggs made the best cheese and potato casserole her husband ever ate, and that being the case, he turned sweet on her all over again. “A new man—the man I used to know—appeared with every bite he ate.”

“Egg casserole did that?” Bella had doubted. Absurd.

“It might sound ridiculous to you, a young woman probably juggling dozens—well, at least a handful of suitors—but yes. I’m quite sure the eggs did it.”

Bella didn’t reveal that she had exactly zero suitors. She buttoned the sweater, remembering Mrs. Lambert’s bright eyes. Magic. The idea was silly, but somehow felt true and so Bella had embraced the gifts. Who was she to argue with what might turn a spent husband loving again? If all it took were eggs, perhaps she ought to fire up a scrambled egg table at the market and maybe even find a man for herself. Perhaps a nice Christmas advertisement in the Pittsburgh Gazette would bring the right caller.

Bella chuckled. She didn’t have the funds for things like publicizing her desire for someone to share her life with. But she did have ideas. When Mrs. Lambert had left and was nearly gone from sight it occurred to Bella to ask a question. “How did you find me?”

But the winds were picking through evergreen stands and hid her voice from the woman who just kept on. Bella Darling wasn’t someone people could just “find.” She was a loner, a family of one, plus her hens and the cat, just grateful she’d lucked into the chance of living in the barn of one of the wealthy Ellsworth Avenue families in Shadyside, a neighborhood on the outskirts of Pittsburgh. And so Bella added another spent hen to her flock, loved on her, fed her the special oat mixture, and marveled when the newest addition began to lay alongside the two she’d been gifted from Mr. and Mrs. Westminster.

Bella would have thought it was magic, too, if she’d read it in a fairy tale. But, since it was her real life and she was no one extraordinary, she decided it was simply her kindness and devotion that brought on the laying.

Her kindness was what brought her the hens in the first place. She’d saved the life of Mr. Westminster and he’d rewarded her with the original pair of spent hens. When he saw that she got them to lay and his wife proclaimed that the three eggs added to the bread recipe made three times the amount of bread, they offered Bella the old barn to live in.

“She can only stay as long as the hens lay,” Mr. Westminster had said.

“I can make syrup, too,” Bella said. “Noticed you have quite the stand of maples.”

Mr. Westminster studied her, scratching his belly. “Mr. Hansen will be by to tap the maples. I’m sure he could use a hand. If you help him collect the sap and make syrup you can stay.”

Mrs. Westminster had leaned into her husband and whispered something.

“No. Barn’ll do,” he said. “Plenty of warmth with the fireplace added. I hear the loft is toasty as can be.”

“For as long as she needs a home, then,” Mrs. Westminster added.

Bella could tell Mrs. Westminster was irritated with her husband.

“If she’s lucky,” he said, “getting spent hens to lay and helping Mr. Hansen will continue for as long as she needs a home. We aren’t running a poorhouse. So don’t spread it around, Miss Darling. We’ll have a line of hopeless souls down the drive and onto the avenue if you tell anyone where you live.” Mr. Westminster tore a hunk of the bread from the loaf and shuffled out of the kitchen.

“Oh, that is good,” his voice had carried from down the hall.

And so, since February 1893, Bella Darling had lived in the barn, tended the hens, nurtured the cat, made maple syrup, and lived contented in spare shelter and with borrowed books. The only time she felt dissatisfaction was when she turned to share an exciting bit of a story with someone else and no one but Simon was there. She didn’t need the parties and balls and excursions that were described in the novels in order to be happy. Just someone to share her life with, her books with—that, she wanted more than anything.

Someone to love. If only magic could deliver her the man of her dreams. She arranged the holiday pine boughs and holly sprigs on the fireplace mantel then tugged on her boots to go collect the day’s eggs and head to market. He, whoever he was, didn’t have to be a man who loved stories like she did—but he needed to like them enough to listen as she reported what happened in them. Someone to gasp and hold her tight as she grew teary-eyed over the life and times of characters who weren’t even alive. Then her contented world would be fully whole.


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Bestselling author Kathleen Shoop, PhD writes historical fiction, women’s fiction, and romance. Shoop’s novels have garnered awards in the Independent Publisher Book Awards (IPPY), Eric Hoffer Book Awards, Next Generation Indie Book Awards, and more. You can find Kathleen in person at various venues. She’s on the board of the Kerr Memorial Museum, teaches at writing/reader conferences, co-coordinates Mindful Writers Retreats and writing conferences, and gives talks at various book clubs, libraries, and historical societies.

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First Chapter: Fighter Pilot's Daughter by Mary Lawlor

 

Title: Fighter Pilot’s Daughter: Growing Up in the Sixties and the Cold War

Author: Mary Lawlor

Publisher: Rowman and Littlefield

Pages: 323

Genre: Memoir

Fighter Pilot’s Daughter: Growing Up in the Sixties and the Cold War tells the story of Mary Lawlor’s dramatic, roving life as a warrior’s child. A family biography and a young woman’s vision of the Cold War, Fighter Pilot’s Daughter narrates the more than many transfers the family made from Miami to California to Germany as the Cold War demanded. Each chapter describes the workings of this traveling household in a different place and time. The book’s climax takes us to Paris in May ’68, where Mary—until recently a dutiful military daughter—has joined the legendary student demonstrations against among other things, the Vietnam War. Meanwhile her father is flying missions out of Saigon for that very same war. Though they are on opposite sides of the political divide, a surprising reconciliation comes years later.

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In the 1920s, when Jack was a child, a framed photograph of his father stood in the living room of their house on Richmond Avenue in South Orange, New Jersey. My grandfather, Edmond Vincent Lawlor, had
come to the United States in the early years of the twentieth century, when he was barely into his teens. On September 19, 1916, he became a U.S. citizen. Not long after, he signed up for Officers Candidate
School at Princeton and got ready to join thousands of others in The World War, later renamed World War I. The picture on the table shows him in uniform, stiff with duty. As a household decoration, it signaled the deep connection between the nation and the family, demonstrated through military service.
Papa, as we called our grandfather, gives a faint smile in the picture.
There’s nothing macho in this expression, no hint he was imagining himself heroic. He was a devout Catholic and would have understood his soldierly commitment as God’s will. Fighting on the side of the
Yanks also gave him a chance to show his affection for America. This was the country that had taken him in, given him a job in a powder factory, offered a new life to his mother and aunt.
World War I was still a pulsating memory when Jack was a boy. For him it would have been a murky tale of faraway places and mysterious danger. The photo showed his father on the edge of all this, an adventurer and a stunningly different person from the cheerful, gray-suited insurance salesman who came home every day at six o’clock.
Papa Lawlor at Officers Candidate School near the end of WWI Edmond never went to the war. It ended by the time he finished OCS. But Iremember that picture of him in uniform, there in the many living rooms of my own early years, a reminder that Papa was not only the mild, affable Irishman we loved, but a man who knew how to use a gun, had been ready to expose himself to violence on behalf of our country.
I say Papa smiles in the photo, but when I look at it now the expression isn’t so easy to read. The face is actually pretty blank. You could say it’s a mask, an empty screen hiding Papa’s feelings, even his sense of
himself as a Navy ensign. The eyes are aimed slightly to his right, off camera, as if he’s not entirely engaged in the portrait. If you keep looking, movement stirs in his face. It’s in the eyes of the beholder, of
course, but he begins to look like he’s ready for something else and can barely stand the still pose. Is this simply his characteristic lack of vanity?
Does he want to get going with the soldiering? Or is he itching to get out of the uniform, go home where he belongs.
As Jack came to the end of his school years, the laughing family and shady streets of South Orange started to look tame. He tried a few semesters at Seton Hall University, not far from home, but his performance was less than impressive. Letters show he was already captured by thoughts of himself far away, across the continent, perhaps the ocean. But he never looked down on his local, New Jersey world. It was the setting of boyhood stories he told us when we were kids. It was the place he gladly returned to after hot summer days in downtown New York, working as a messenger for the Japanese Cotton and Silk Trading Company. South Orange was his mother’s world. It was where Nan Ferris Lawlor presided over his beloved brothers and sisters—“my kin,” as he jokingly called them. In his first uniform, standing on the dappled lawn of the house on Richmond Avenue, he grins at the camera, his arm around her. He looks happy to be so grounded there, and so ready to go away. He wanted adventure. He wanted to go to sea, to learn navigation. And he wanted to fly.
In March 1942 Jack enrolled as a cadet at the U.S. Merchant Marine Academy. Established by Congress in 1938, the Merchant Marine Cadet Corps trained sailors for commercial ships that could convert to
military service in times of war. Now, with the demands of World War II pressing, merchant marines were needed for duty in less time than the formal curriculum allowed. Jack spent three months in the class
room at the Academy’s temporary facilities on the Chrysler estate in Great Neck, Long Island. Courses included seamanship, cargo handling, maritime engineering, math, and ship construction. He studied
hard and did well. Letters home, written in an exuberant voice, show how excited he was to be learning the life of a seaman, getting ready to see the world.
In preparing for a naval science exam in the spring of 1943, he wrote his father, “If I don’t pass it at least I tried. I know you’ll be interested to hear this Dad, knowing how disappointed you were with the time I wasted in Seton Hall. I realize that myself now, Dad, more than ever and I’m going to do my best to make up for it.” He was affectionate with his parents and wrote as if pleasing them mattered a great deal. For all
his desire to get away from home and out into the world, his identification with the family was absolute.
Gleeful at what the Merchant Marines were preparing him to do, Jack found talents he didn’t know he had in the seamanship training, especially in navigation. For the signaling course, he had to commit
endless codes to memory. He would have to pass a test that required sending eight words per minute in Semaphore and another eight in Morse. “It’s going to be tough,” he complained, “because there is nothing interesting about it. It’s just plain memory work. But you’ve got to know this stuff on board ship so it’s a good thing.”
Practicing as an able bodied seaman was another story. “Yesterday afternoon we shipped an 800 pound anchor over the side to a barge and there were only three of us to move it. Today we had quite a thrill. They sent Tex and me aloft to paint the masts in a boatswain’s swing. Boy oh Boy but you’re away way up when you do that and when we painted the top part and got down to the spar we had to crawl out on our bellies to paint the end of the thing. God I liked to die. That mast was swaying with the ship and me out on the yard that was bending under my weight. I’m so darn tired from hanging on that I can hardly lift the pen. But I think I’ll live.”
With his six-foot frame, good looks, and rough amiability, Jack made friends easily. Time with his new pals was often brief, as the advanced pace of Merchant Marine training meant assignments were given out
quickly. In letters home he complained at having to say goodbye. “I made quite a friend with this guy Tex. . . . But he’s due to go home in two weeks. Gosh it’s lousy this way your friends come and go so quickly
in a place like this.” As Jack’s first voyage approached, he was glum about the separations. “There are only 4 of us left out of our whole gang since this afternoon, for 3 shipped out then. . . . Boy it really seemed
tough saying goodbye to those 3 guys this afternoon and we’re a pretty lonesome bunch tonight.” The letter has a prophetic tone to it. There would be a lot of this in years to come. Jack would soon toughen up, learn to slap the guys on the back and say good-bye fast. He knew he might never see them again, and he stopped writing home about it.
Reading this letter about the three guys shipping out so many decades later, I feel badly for my dad. Then I see mornings on the tarmac when Jack is leaving us for some long-term mission. And the sight of a neighborhood comes up, receding in the back window of our car. Friends, then boyfriends wave good-bye. Of course, for Dad and his remaining pals another kind of loss lurked at the sight of the waiting
sea bags and in the last, terse good-byes. Where they were going death lurked right beside the adventures.
On May 11, 1942, he got his shipping papers. Rumors had been circulating that his cohort would have their first orders soon. Jack’s letters are ambivalent about it. Twice he uses the word terrific where
terrible should be. A few paragraphs after announcing the news of the shipping papers, he writes, “It seems terrific to think that I’ll be actually leaving home for such a long time. I keep trying to picture what it’s going to be like. I just dread the thought of the dam last day when I have to say so long to you all.” A week later, he and his pals set out by train for San Francisco where they would be assigned to a ship. In the club car with his friend Ray Barrett he penned a note, posted by the porter from Pittsburgh, describing his sad self in not entirely convincing terms: “Well that dreadful day when I had to leave you is almost past and let me tell you the big tough guy who never got homesick isn’t so big and tough any more and this afternoon at Penn Sta he was plenty homesick. But after we fastened up we had a good chicken dinner for $1.65 less 10% for the uniform. I felt much better. But it was terrific leaving you.”
In San Francisco, before reporting for ship duty, he had the time of his life. He and his friends were treated like visiting celebrities. “I’m in the best place in town, the Hotel Francis Drake, and a gal just took my picture. I’ll send you one.” In the same letter he tells them “our picture was in the S.F. Chronicle. I’ll send you one of those too! The S.F. Chamber of Commerceis having a National Maritime Day and we were picked to pose for the paper.” He sent a clipping along, a photo of himself and a fellow cadet in dress uniform, smiling as they explain the details of a model cargo ship bridge to a San Franciscan named Virginia Haley. It’s hard to tell whether the center of the photo is the ship model, Dad’s grin, or Haley’s legs. At the Persian Room on May 21, he laughs at the camera in the company of an unnamed actress in a white pillbox hat. The next night, at Charlie Low’s Forbidden City, a supper club on Sutter Street, he stands beside a local actress, looking awkward but dapper nonetheless. Another night in the Persian Room, Jack
glances at the photographer while talking with Ray Barrett and another friend from the Academy. Over cocktails and smokes, they’re obviously enjoying themselves, but something serious hovers between them. Ray wrote on the inside of the photo sleeve, “We went to the Academy together and now we’re going to sea together. Need I say more than all the luck in the world to you?” Amid the dancing and cocktails and the photographers, they were having a ball. They were also thinking about what was coming next.
He was assigned to the Grace Line’s Santa Clara. “The ship is a corker—it’s big, fast and well armed (Thank God),” he wrote to the family. “Our stateroom was a mess when we first got into it but today we fixed it up and it’s pretty nice. We have plenty of room, our own bath and lots of closet and locker space. There are three of us in the room and we get along swell. The meals are swell and we eat in the officers’ mess. It’s a break being on a troop ship, because the food is always extra good on them and besides they are well protected.” Earlier, still in San Francisco, he had met some of his superiors and written home, “the officers are swell guys and surprisingly young. We are with the third mate tonight and the girls [Jack’s sisters, Ann and Marg] would go nuts over him. We are learning more than I thought it was possible for me to commit to my thick cranium, just through these young fellars. The skipper is only 35. How about that?” In ten weeks they would be back in New York. Jack was out of his head with excitement but mindful of his attachment to home. In a postscript, he notes “I’m damn happy, but a little lonesome.”
By the end of his first year, Jack had been at sea for nine months.
Still he kept in touch with South Orange regularly. He addresses the household as “Dear Home” and signs his letters “Salty.” Expressions of affection intensify as time, distance grow. On the eve of his first trip to
the Pacific he wrote: “You have said you were proud of me. Well I’m pretty damn proud to call myself one of you.” At times the words have a faint ring of guilt—for being so far from home, for having a great time
at it: “You are the grandest Mother and Dad a fellow could have and I’ll always look forward to the days I can spend with you again.”
Jack was out on a cruise when Edward Haugh, who would soon become his close friend and brother-in-law, entered the Merchant Marine Academy in 1943. Five years later Ed married Frannie’s younger
sister, Mary Ellen. Like a mirror opposite of our own family, Mary Ellen and Ed had four sons, more or less our ages. Much later, after my dad and uncle had become experienced seamen and pilots, after they’d
seen violent action in war, it was the Haugh boys who learned about the most dramatic events, the violent ones. As girls and even women, we were never told those things. Bits and pieces reached our ears, fragments of stories about crashes and escapes through enemy territory. We would wonder, mystified, about where our father had been, how these things happened, what he felt and did. I imagined veiled scenes in dark jungles, Dad slipping through the high growth, his terrified gaze hunting the perimeter. He would be operating on deadly survival instincts, hungry, thirsty, wet. A specter as frightening as the enemies who missed him, he crept in absolute silence, the blue eyes, like flashlights, pointing the way. Or he was down in the sea, clinging to the wing of a plane, waiting for some helicopter to lift him out. These images came and went whether he was home or away.
During the return cruise to New York in early August, Jack’s exhilaration with life as a Merchant Marine came under the cloud of one particular commander. The man threw his weight around, made his presence felt among the cadets, making them do unnecessary things, just because he could. Jack got in his sights and found himself in a power struggle with a personal charge to it. He restrained himself from
telling the guy off when he demanded that a course, checked for accuracy several times already, be backed up with a series of alternative routes—a job that called for meticulous, time consuming calculations.
Jack took a deep breath and performed the useless task but swore he would get out of this man’s clutches. Landed in New York again in September, he and his buddies proceeded to the Merchant Marine
office downtown to sign up for another trip out, but the functionary in charge refused to put them together on a different ship. Word had made its way from the dock. Jack and his best friend, George Roper, decided “to hell with them.” As Merchant Marine cadets, they had already been sworn into the Navy on reserve status. The Navy could give them something the academy couldn’t. They could learn to fly. The next day the two of them walked north to the Naval Recruiting Office
and enlisted for active duty.
In the Merchant Marines, the cadets had been introduced to the ancient discipline of navigation. Always good at math in school, Jack, George, and my uncle Ed had taken it up like naturals. Mathematical
representations were as real to them as the ground itself. Even in retirement, their desks were littered with compasses, rulers, pencils and scraps of paper covered with calculations. The practice of charting seas
gave them confidence in moving through watery space, like it was lined and readable as a series of roads. Success at plotting a course at sea, as Uncle Ed explained not long ago, rattled their imaginations. They wondered how it would be to navigate the sky.
In the autumn of 1942, Jack and George began flight school at the Naval air station in New Paltz, New York, north of West Point. Ed came up the following year. Jack’s notes for the first course, in a folder la
beled in block print “Aircraft Identification, Mr. Oakley,” show he was already dedicated to learning everything he could about airplanes. In a careful hand he lists “Four main wing and plane relationships,” “Wing Descriptions,” and “Tips.” He copies the markings for Navy and Army aircraft alphabetically. A hand-drawn graph, the boxes neatly ruled, identifies the names of airplanes with their wing and tip configurations; engine and armaments; tail and fuselage surfaces; speed, ceiling and load range. Forty-two different planes appear in the six-page chart.
Photos, cut from catalogs and neatly taped to the notebook pages, show the Grumman G-21, the F4F Wildcat, the Martin PBM-3 Mariner (a “flying boat”), the Vought-Sikorsky OS2U-1 Kingfisher, the SB2U-3
Vindicator (“a dive bomber”), and many others. British planes appear—the Hawker Hurricane IIc (“with bombs slung under the wings”), and the Handley Page Halifax. A page is set aside for Japan’s Kawanishi
Type 94 (a bomber for which “no information is available on the location of the bomb bays”); another for Germany’s Dornier DO 17 (“a reconnaissance bomber”) and the infamous Messerschmitts—the ME
110 and ME109F.Captions indicate the wing and tail markings and the all-important size, speed, and range specifications. For survival’s sake, Jack would have to get these in his head. Notes in the margins indicate he was memorizing speed, altitude, and bombing capabilities of all the aircraft.
In March 1943, he wrote his father, “I’ve got almost four hours in the air now and I ought to solo in seven or eight, which should be some time this week . . . I’ve got a damn good instructor and he drums those
fundamentals into us all the time. I’m due to go upstairs to learn a series of ‘spins.’” Upstairs referred to four thousand feet, a dramatic, new level. The excitement of flying so high, of getting to take the airplane to the limits of its capacity, continues a few days later: “Boy those spins are something. We climbed to 4000, cut the motor and turner her nose straight up and put the rudder hard left and bingo! Down she goes nose first spinning like a top. We do two complete spins and come out of it.”
Shortly after, he made his first solo. The plane was an Aeronca Defender. He told his brother Edmond about it later, but no description of this prime moment appears in the letters. Soon he sent his
mother an account of what flying alone was like. “Walt, my Instructor, let me go out over our area alone yesterday afternoon for a whole hour.
You can’t see the area from the field so I had quite a time for myself. First I practiced high work and went up over the cloudbank at about 7,000 feet. You never saw anything so beautiful in all your life just you
the plane and the sky and those big white pillows below you. Super stuff.” Already he felt confident enough with the aircraft to start fooling around. “After that, I went down very low and practiced forced landings and made sure the fields were pastures and Boy you ought to see those dam old cows run. When I realized how much fun it was I tried dive bombing them and hot dog if ‘Bossie’ didn’t dam near give birth to a goat. Oh you should of seen them go—” He signs the letter “Orville Wright.”
Training continued into the summer of 1943 at Chapel Hill, North Carolina, where he started doing acrobatic hops; then at Bunker Hill, Indiana, where his enthusiasm grew explosive. “The flying is really terrific,” he wrote his mother and father. “There are three stages you have to get through. First you have A stage, that’s just safe for solo and then B stage, that’s ‘S’ turns and slips to circles and wingovers. Then in C stage you really start flying. That’s acrobatics and night flying and those acrobatics include everything, slow rolls, snap rolls, Immelman’s and inverted spins and falling leaves and every other tough one you can
think of.”
During those months at Chapel Hill, Jack went through a rigorous athletic program, including a week each of track, swimming, football and boxing. The cadets were graded for each sport. Competition for strong marks was high. On August 5 he wrote his parents, “I got my boxing marks yesterday and today. I didn’t make out too good yesterday. I lost my fight but today I made up for it. I won by a T.K.O. (that means they had to stop the fight because the guy I was fighting was pretty badly cut up).” Without another word about this, he moves on to his successes in football. He had made the battalion squad, a first for his
platoon. His father must have written expressing concern about the August 5 account of leaving his boxing opponent “pretty badly cut up.”
On the thirty-first, Jack wrote, “You sounded a little worried about my reaction to that fight I had. Well it’s O.K. Fact is I’ve made pretty good friends with the guy since and he wasn’t hurt too much anyway.”
This is the first evidence of Jack’s capacity for combat. The athletic schedule at Chapel Hill was aimed at sharpening reflexes for just this purpose. In late August he described to his mother how wrestling was
simultaneously training in hand to hand combat: “This hand to hand is the coldest stuff man ever thought up. It was explained to us this morning as the ways of quickly killing or disabling permanently a man with
only the weapons God gave us. We’re being taught to gouge out a man’s eyes and bite off his ears and bite into his jugular vein in his throat and every conceivable dirty stunt in the books.” If the “dirty stunts” seemed repellent to Jack and the detailed description a way of absorbing the shock, they must have been nothing short of shocking to his mother.
Why he would submit this information to her is something of a mystery.
Sharing scenes of violence with women was not a practice he would continue. During these years as a young flyer, everybody in the family served in the crucial role of audience for his adventures.
Jack’s preferred vision of military life at this point was far and away a vision of flying, of trying out the heights and lows, the angles and spins an airplane could take. Ground combat was distasteful and not for him.
In June of 1944, he earned his wings at the Naval air station in Pensacola, Florida. At this point, a cadet could chose to continue with the Navy or to shift to the Marine Corps, and Jack chose the Marines. That fall he found himself on the west coast again, this time in southern California.
At the Marine Corps air station in El Toro he underwent a combat conditioning course. “You would think we were going through infantry school instead of being aviators. It’s very much similar to Chapel Hill
only a lot tougher. We start at the crack of dawn and do close order drill, exercises and bayonet drill until sundown. And then to bed and no kidding I’m there by seven. It’s doing good, I guess.”
But El Toro meant more flight school too. By now he was tired of being a student. “Well here we are again,” he wrote in early January of 1945, “back in school. How do you like it? Gee I haven’t done a damn
thing but go to school since the beginning of the damn war. But this time I think I’ve got something because these jokers say that they are going to teach us how to fly every airplane the Navy uses, from primary trainers to the big 4 engined flying boats. This month alone we will be flying Avengers, Hellcats, Hell divers.” He had been through seventy two weeks of flight training, almost a year and a half as a student. As a professional aviator, he would go back to “school” periodically to learn the technology of new aircraft. Later training, however, was more about refining skills he already had, skills that would eventually come to be recognized as those of a master aviator.
Jack had been away from home for some time now. He wrote that he missed the holidays with the family. “I don’t expect we’ll get a transcontinental for a couple of months yet, but I’ll get there by gosh. If they
won’t send me over seas I’ll get there by hook or crook.” Aware of the ambivalence in his phrasing and the muddiness—won’t instead of don’t and the open-ended meaning of there—about what he really wanted next, to go home or “overseas,” which meant to the war, he adds in parenthesis, “to New York I mean.” In spite of Jack’s exhaustion with being a student, it’s pretty clear as he virtually chants the names of the airplanes he is about to get his hands on that what he wants most is to fly and fly some more. The implication is strong that he wanted not so much to go home but to get further away.
In all Jack’s letters written from the Merchant Marine Academy, from Navy flight school, and Marine Corps training, references to the Catholic religion in which he was raised are sparse and formal. From Navy pre-flight school in Chapel Hill, North Carolina in September 1943 he described a field mass he attended at the base stadium. It was a solemn high pontifical mass, “very pretty and very impressive . . . I sang
in the choir and we sang the mass of St. Basil and it sounded pretty good.” But the event is also memorable because his girlfriend Ruth was visiting from New Jersey. They’d been engaged since before he’d left the Merchant Marines, but the relationship wouldn’t survive the long separation to come.
Later that month the base chaplain, Father Sullivan, asked Jack to manage a fund raising campaign with his outgoing battalion for the construction of a church. Jack spent a week with a friend giving “pep
talks” and canvassing. The priest “almost jumped out of his pants” when they handed over $444.60. Other stories sent home remind his parents that he’s still a good, practicing Catholic son; but none of his writing
expresses a deep or conscientious sense of devotion. In a postscript, he notes, “The chaplain is a grand guy. Have been to Sacraments” and “Still taking pills and saying Hail Marys.”
If pressed, Jack would undoubtedly have declared the whole project in which he was engaged—learning to be a warrior for the good guys—the deepest sacred duty he could perform. It was the sort of credo he
would maintain throughout his military career. God, Christ, and the Virgin seemed to loom for him in a distant sphere. Signs of their benevolence or wrath might be legible in this-world phenomena, but they
existed elsewhere. Although he kept an image of Our Lady of Loretto—patroness of aviators—in the cockpit with him, it wasn’t until after retirement that he showed a personal, more intimate connection with Catholicism. Maybe it was there in him earlier, but the letters suggest that for the young pilot, the more abstract, the more formal his religion, the better it would work for him.
In May of 1945 he finally set out for the war, to the site of one of the bloodiest conflicts, Okinawa. Assigned to Marine Fighter Squadron 222 of the Second Marine Air Wing, he left San Diego on a troop transport.
He had been waiting for this, for the chance to get beyond the dress rehearsals of training to the sites of real action. Excitement beat like a drum. He knew, of course, what horror lay ahead. The terror was fuel,
already sharpening his senses.
The well-ordered life at sea, like the round of days on the base, held up a steady, familiar, world. The repetition of chores, drills, and meals flattened shipboard experience. Behind the lulling rhythms, however, an eerie, Melvillian, spell dragged along. One hot day near New Guinea, when they couldn’t take looking at the gunmetal and the horizon anymore, Jack and a few others climbed over the edge for a swim.
Shortly after, the voice of the commander boomed from the deck, ordering them back on board. Reluctantly but quickly they did as he said. The officer walked them across deck to the opposite side of the ship and pointed into the water. It was boiling with hammerhead sharks.
A “shark shooter,” as Uncle Ed Haugh told me, would normally be stationed at a lookout point high above the deck when sailors were swimming in Pacific waters. Protecting the vulnerable crew, the shooter kept a close eye off the gunwales, ready to fire at any moment. If this protection was in place, it didn’t dispel the commander’s terror at sight of the enormous, T-shaped fish, thronging too close to the splashing men.
The hammerhead shark story was in our heads, told more than once, so vivid was it in Dad’s memory. He was a good storyteller. He knew how to pace the action, when to pause, when to raise and lower his
voice. Making a collective character of the swimmers, he showed with wide eyes and eager shoulders how dangerously naïve they were. The commander, deep voiced and rigid, was right, he told us, not because
the hammerheads proved him to be, but because he was the commander. With loose-minded people like his younger self to teach and supervise, the commander had to convey that his word, his order, was reason in itself. Jack’s heart was not revolting now, as it had to the arbitrary power of the Merchant Marine officer in the summer of 1942. He had grown up, become a professional; and the wartime context demanded that everybody do precisely as they were told. The scene looks ominously symbolic of the enemy waiting over the horizon, a threat that hadn’t crossed the threshold of visibility for Jack quite yet. But to our ears as children, the episode was like an allegory of the horrible things that could happen if you chose not to follow your leaders, whether they were parents, or teachers, or ship commanders. Outside the boundaries of our ruled lives, nature and the world’s violent passions came snapping at your heels. Better to stay on the boat, as Chef repeats in Apocalypse Now, his voice mechanical, dehumanized with fear.
In all those years of sailing, flying, fighting and bombing far from home, pitched against nature and other people, was my father on the boat or off it? Following orders, he kept his place. He knew to stay near
the boat and climb back aboard when commanded. But in later years he would often have to operate as an irregular, out of anybody’s reach, untraceable, courting danger. In this sense he seemed regularly off the boat. And that meant he was unreachable for us, at home, too. Being off the boat was at some level a choice for Jack, like it is for Captain Willard, just returned to Vietnam at the beginning of Apocalypse Now, describing his feelings about home: “When I was here, I wanted to be there; when I was there, all I could think of was getting back into the jungle.”
VMF222 would be credited with shooting down fifty-three Japanese planes during the Battle of Okinawa. Jack flew the F4U Corsair, a carrier-based fighter aircraft he’d been trained to operate at El Toro.
The Corsair was armed with Browning machine guns on the wings. It could shoot missiles and drop bombs.
The Battle of Okinawa lasted for three months, until May 1945. At this point, the U.S. forces had established bases to be used as launch sites for a major attack on the Japanese mainland. The plan was
scrapped, of course, when the atom bombs were dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki; but the bases remained in place. Jack and his fellow pilots lived in improvised quarters—tents and later quonset huts—not far from the airfield at Awase.
From February until May of 1946, the war now over, Jack was as signed to “Special Service” with the Fourth Marine Wing. This meant duty in Northern China. Among Dad’s medals is a long yellow bar with
a red stripe at each end, the China Service medal. Marines had been posted to China since September 1945, helping accept the surrender of Japanese forces. The situation was complicated by the civil war that was building between Chang Kai-shek’s central government and the expanding Communist movement under Mao Tse Tung. Stalin, still America’s ally, was supporting Mao. The United States hadn’t taken an
overt military position in this struggle, although the hope was that Chang would prevail. For ordinary marines on duty in China, the scene was sometimes difficult to read.
Jack was housed in U.S. facilities at Tsingtao, on the coast southeast of Beijing. He and other marines shared the rough quarters with foreign nationals posted on commercial and diplomatic missions since
before the war, and with members of the United Nations Relief and Rehabilitation Administration. (The UNRR was formed in 1943 by Roosevelt; the “United Nations” were the WWII Allies. The mission was to provide economic aid and relief for nations damaged in WWII.)
Among the international community in Tsingtao, Jack met a Russian woman named Vlada, who he went out with a few times, but either he decided for himself or he was told to stop seeing her. Dating a Soviet
citizen had become a problem, and Jack did as he was told. One night Vlada came knocking at his BOQ door. He didn’t answer. She knocked louder and shouted into the night, “It is I, Vlada.” He still didn’t answer.
Eventually she went away. As Dad told the story, it was clear he thought it was funny. He did a comic imitation of Vlada’s accented, dramatic English. It’s hard to know if he was laughing at the time. My sisters and I never thought to ask this question. Were her antics laughable? Or had he distanced himself from her anyway, before the new rule came about, because she was demanding, too serious about him? Did Vlada’s foreignness mean he didn’t need to take her seriously, whether she was funny or not? I think of Vlada, wonder what she was going through that night. Who had she thought she’d found in Jack? What did she think, walking away from his door? Did she remember him for long? And what of Jack in his own eyes? Did he see himself still as a gleeful young pilot, ready to leap the oceans, explore jungles continents away from South Orange? Or had he grown some armor he hadn’t had before the war, a toughness about the heart that would recede and then strengthen again in the tough years to come? If Vlada could be dismissed with a laugh, how ready was he to open his heart seriously to anybody—and to
any woman—back home?

About the Author:

Mary Lawlor is author of Fighter Pilot’s Daughter (Rowman & Littlefield 2013, paper 2015), Public Native America (Rutgers Univ. Press 2006), and Recalling the Wild (Rutgers Univ. Press, 2000). Her short stories and essays have appeared in Big Bridge and Politics/Letters. She studied the American University in Paris and earned a Ph.D. from New York University. She divides her time between an old farmhouse in Easton, Pennsylvania, and a cabin in the mountains of southern Spain.

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